I have been very stressed out and scared to serve a mission lately. I feel weak emotionally, and thnk this will be too hard for me to handle. The missionaries in my ward came over last night and I told one of the sisters my concerns and how scared I was. She said, “I’m going to give you some advice that has helped me through the rough times on my mission. In the scriptures, it repeatedly says “And it came to pass…” never “and it came to stay”. Whatever it is, it will pass and you will come out okay!”
This hit me so hard. She’s so right. No matter what trial we are going through at this time, it will eventually pass and we will be okay. It’s such a comfort to me that I can also go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him to bless me with strength and comfort. I can beg him for help, tell him all my concerns, and He will help me. There is no doubt in my mind that He will.
Through every trial, there is always light present and that light will eventually take over and everything will be okay. I chose this picture to go with this post because I love how the sky is all foggy, but there is still that drop of sunlight peaking through. The smoke is from all the California fires and even though it is a reminder of sorrow or loss for some people, there is still that sun shining through as a symbol of hope. Eventually the sky does clear up and everything is okay.
I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.
I am sharing this experience because it was very eye-opening for me. I have been going on splits with the missionaries lately and running to uplifting music…and I’ve basically been on a spiritual high these past few weeks, and I think it must have been too much for satan to handle because now I feel like I’m at an all time low. I sang for sacrament meeting today and people complimented me afterwards but I still felt really down for some reason. And even though i LOVE going on splits, negative thoughts have been popping in my mind… Stupid, downer thoughts. It caused me to really start to question going on a mission and I became really scared. It has been the weirdest thing to experience this because so far, until today, I have been super gung-ho and animated about serving a mission! I haven’t experienced this part yet. I burst into tears crying to my parents, telling them how I felt, and it got to the point where I was hyperventilating. I just felt like there had been a total change in my heart and I hated it. My dad served a mission 20+years ago in peru, which is right next to Ecuador (where I’m going) so he shared some things that I may experience down there. It was so comforting, and he mentioned how you really do need to forget yourself on your mission. I have heard this SO frequently, and I’ve always thought “I am a very caring, loving person. I’m not self-centered or cocky…I’ll be fine.” But that’s NOT what it’s all about. It’s about forgetting that you miss family and friends…forgetting that your feet are sore from walking…forgetting that no one celebrated your birthday because no one knew when it was…forgetting that you’re tired…forgetting that you don’t know anyone…forgetting your pet peeves…forgetting your critical thoughts. I now know that this will be very trying, as everyone has said before, but I KNOW that we all have the strength to do this. I know that our Heavenly Father is there to comfort us, lead us, strengthen us, humble us…HE IS THERE. I am no longer fearing this mission thankfully, but I do know that when it is hard I CANNOT just give up. It is 18 months out of 80 or 90 years of my life. That’s all. So I need to put all I have into it because I will reflect on it for THE REST OF MY LIFE. I love this gospel and I know that we can overcome Satan’s awful negativity. I love reading through Moses and seeing how Moses puts him in his place. It shows how truly insignificant satan is compared to our beloved Heavenly Father. If you ever need to read something where satan is totally dissed…that’s the place to go!! I love this gospel and I know that every single one of us has the potential and the ability to save lives. I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.